Nail Polish of the Week

The color is called "Wedding White" but it looks like "White-Out"

Goodbye to you- Michelle Branch

Of all the things i believed in
I just want to get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but i do not cry
counting the days that pass me by

ive been searching deep down in my soul
words that im hearing are strting to get old
it feels like im starting all over again
the last 3 years were just pretend

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

i use to get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i cant live a day without you
closing my eyes and you chased the thoughts away
to a place where i am blinded by the light
but its not right

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one that i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want whats yours and i wants whats mine
i want you but im not giving in this time

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold onto

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
the one thing that i tried to holdd onto
the one thing that i tried to hold onto

and when the stars fall i will lay awake
youre my shooting star

If we were a movie-miley cyrus

uh oh
there you go again, talking cinematic
yea you,
your charming
got everybody starstruck

I know
how you always seem to go
for the obvious instead of me
but get a ticket and youll see

if we were a movie
you'd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

yea...

yea yea
when you call me
i can hear it in your voice
oh sure
wanna see me
and tell me all about her
la la
ill be acting through my tears
i guess youll never know
that i should win
an oscar for this scene im in

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

wish i could tell you theres a twist
some type of hero in disguise
and were together its for real
now playing

wish i could tell you theres a kiss
something more than in my mind
i see it could be amazing

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend that
youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the bestfriend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

Basket Case - Green Day

Do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything all at once?

I am one of those
melodramatic fools
nerotic to the bone no doubt about it

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i just sad>?

I went to a shrink
to analyse my dreams
she says its lack of sex thats bringing me down

I went to a whore
and said my life's a bore
so quit my whining because its bringing her down

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i sad?

grasping to control
so i better hold on

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i just sad?

im living in hell

im living in hell

there is no god, there is no devil

this world is a cruel and evil place

and i am not sure i want to be a part of it anymore

people kill eachother for no reason

people kill eachother because they like it

people we love and let close to us let us down

the only reason they are there is to fail you

to bring you down too

you cant let yourself love anyone because if you let your gaurd down

you will be destroyed

this life means nothing and when you die you are nothing

so if i die, then i am nothing

i would rather be nothing then a part of something so horrible

as this dimention that i live in

the good times are only there to make the bad times so much worse

logic only exists to be twisted by those who can

love doesnt exist

i thought i was in love, not only once but twice

the first time i thought i was wrong because i was manipulated

the second time was all a lie

friends are only there to go behind your back and destroy you from behind

enemies are the only ones you can trust because at least their intentions are out in the open

no one is innoscent

no one tells the truth

no one says what they mean

every day passes by, and it is an eternity before you get to your dreams

and when you get there you realise they arent what you want

or they arent what you need

or they arent possible to you

I wanted to start a family

I wanted to get married

I wanted to have kids

How can I have these things if there is no love

If there is no innoscence

Simon loved me once

but not anymore

Anthony loved me once

but not anymore

I will forever be alone

I will forever be nothing

When I die I will be nothing

I just wish it would happen already so the torture can stop

The happiness being taken away all the time

The lies

The cheating

The betrayal of trust and friendship

All you wanted was sex out of me

How do I know this is true?

Because you dont care that I am dying inside

You only care about yourself

Am I the only person who is able to care about people other than me?

Then when it gets to the point when I need someone

ANYONE

to care about me

I always find that I am alone

ALWAYS

I need to be held

I need to be loved

If I am alone for much longer I might die from the tears

Dramatic no?

Too much you think?

That's because you dont

Thats because we dont.

Im living in hell

Ignorance is Bliss

Ignorance is bliss, but knowlege is power. To whom is the knowledge powerful?

As we get older, in our lives we are exposed to moments where we find out something that is more complicated than it seems. I have been reading "Banana" by Dan Koeppel, and it has opened my eyes to the truth about where our food comes from and how it is made. For example, bananas, did you ever notice they dont have seeds>? Did you ever bother to ask yourself why?

It is because every banana is a clone of another banana. The bananas we eat today are not the same type of bananas that were eaten in this country 40 years ago. We are eating clone bananas. And the bananas we consume today are only able to reproduce by human hand, otherwise there would be no more bananas. These clone bananas are created from genes of other fruits and even fish.

I continued to read an article about the fruit drink Fuze, and the fact that we dont even think where all the ingredients for the drink comes from and instead we wonder about how many sugars and calories we consume from it show all of the ignorance in this country. To find out where the ingredeints come from the author of the article spent 7 hours of intense online research to find out where each ingredient comes from, and still had no positive answer as to where each ingredient came from.

We live in America, where we dont have to wonder where our food comes from but rather how much of it we eat, while we are supporting the countries that we do not want to support. The leaders and the economies of the people we fight against. We put farmers in our own country out of jobs because we dont bother to look at where our food comes from. A single item can have ingredients from all over the world and we ignore the fact and accept that it is food, and we need food to survive.

And what can we do about it? We can garden our own fruits and vegitables, grow our own wheat, make our own breads and pastas. We can buy from local farms, or from local grociers that buy from local farms. Does this make any impact at all? NO. Does it change anything in the long run? NO.

So if knowlege is power, then why does it happen, that the people who go through the trouble of finding the knowlege are so few? And to that, the people who have this knowlege have no power over the situation but rather are left with a feeling of guilt, disgust, hatred, helplessness, and uselessness while the people who are oblivious to all of this are rolling in cash or are comfortably eating whatever food they feel like regardless of where it came from or who needs it most?

Ignorance is bliss, because when we do have knowlege we dont know what to do with it, and it ends up destroying us. What do we do with knowlege? We try to spread it but it is never heard. If it is heard in the least, there arent enough people to do anything about it. The things i discussed in this one post are only a few points of a very important issue and of this important issue, it is only one of the bajillion other issues that need to be adressed.

We will just keep destroying ourselves because it is more comfortable and easier on our conciences to not know about all of the horrible things happening because of our ignorance. So the question is, be happy? or be right.

Nail color of the week

this week the color is Silver Slippers by Confetti

I WANT THIS!!

A CUPCAKE MAKER! HOW AWESOME, I WANT!

Also, how badass is this girl?

my first tattoo

So I have decided for sure that I want my first tattoo to be on my foot and to be HAMTARO

I love online shopping

So I was online shopping and I cam across this ice-cube tray that makes shark fins

AWESOME!!!

also these shot glass ice-cube trays

time to break out

so I was online shopping, which I do when I need a little pick-me-up

and I was looking at retro clothing, which I love, but don't feel comfortable wearing.
So I was thinking to myself, if there was a retro-new age-punk wear that is what I would be happy to wear all the time.

I kept looking at goth sites, and punk rocker sites, but it was all too outgoing for me but THEN...

I discovered the style called rockabilly

what rockabilly is, is a retro punk look from the 80's and it looks fucking fantastic. It is loud but not polka dots with plaid loud, or chains and blood loud. Simply individual and brings together my favorite parts of the punk look and adding retro to it.

I am going to finish the jacket I started making for my boi and then I am gonna rockabilly all my clothes.... YESSSS

Summer Fashions

Gladiator sandals
Aviators
Nude and pastel colors
Flowing tops
Ballerina flats
Skinny jeans
Flower prints
Bubble skirts
Divided dresses (belt under the boobs)
Loose clothes

Four Walls

I feel like I am stuck in a small room
Four walls and a roof over my head
All made from concrete
It is dangerous outside of this small room
It is thundering and raining
And things are bumping up against my walls
And the walls are not sturdy
The walls are not supported by anything
They are simply standing in an uproght position
Like all good walls should
Except for the walls arent keeping balance anymore
They are slowly caving in on my in my small room
I have to keep the walls up or the concrete ceiling will collapse on me

Right now, I am trying to prevent the walls from caving in on me
But as I get more discouraged, the storm outside gets more intense
And the walls keep pushing up against me
And I am trying my best to keep the ceiling above my head
But I am trapped and just trying to reach a comfortable medium
Being able to sit in the room until the storm blows over
But it is never that easy
I must keep the walls up and the ceiling too


So are the walls my foundation?
My beliefs and my structure?
And the ceiling what keeps me protected but still trapped?
Why am I so afraid of the storm outside?
It is only rain and thunder afterall, and it can't be any worse
Than being trapped within a small concrete box

But now it is too late!
How do I escape from a concrete box?
Without the ceiling collapsing on me
And crushing me?
It's like I dug my own grave
Or am playing hide and seek in a sinking ship

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother

So I was sitting at the table, and I pick up the Sunday's Suduko and start to fill it out (The Sunday Suduko is made up of five different Suduko boards, and it really hard!)

So I get up to turn off the computers after a powersurge and forget that I was mid-Suduko-ing

I come back to the table to play a card game with mi hermano since we lost power, and I get ready to continue my Suduko-ing. It was not even an hour later that I come back to the Suduko game to find all my answers erased!

MI HERMANO DECIDED THAT SINCE HE FELT LIKE PLAYING SUDUKO HE WOULD ERASE ALL MY ANSWERS AND START OVER!

BASTARD

So I get angry, of course.
Why do I even try anymore? Any little thing I do always gets destroyed, and I feel like no one actually cares about me anymore. No one considers anyone else's feelings in this house and I am sick of it. Too bad the rest of the world and everyone in it is exactly the same. People are only friends with you for their own convinience. There is not such thing as caring for someone else, because everyone puts themselves first. I am the same as everyone else in this way. I should just get used to it or go. What is the point anymore?

Kevin McHale

Kevin McHale, Artie from Glee, was in a past Zoey 101 episode that I rewatched today.

He was a character named DOOLEY

It was weird to see him acting as a character other than Artie. Also it was weird seeing him walk...

Two sides to every argument

So I watch the tv show Degrassi, and currently Degrassi is having a special in which they title "The Boiling Point", which brings up some arguments between friends that I am having a hard time picking sides for.



The first argument that I have mixed feelings over is between two former best friends.



Background:



Holly J, is a snob and has a rich boyfriend. She thinks that she is better than everyone else, not only because she used to be rich, but also because she is very smart, gets good grades, and is good at everything she tries. She has been the class president of Degrassi (The name of the highschool they attend as well as the name of the T.V. show) for three years, and wants to be class president again.



Anya had been dating a boy named Sav for two years, when he broke her heart on the day after prom by breaking up with her (Anya lied to Sav about taking birth control and they had unprotected sex, so Sav did not trust Anya anymore)



Anya and Holly J used to be best friends until Anya realized that Holly J was controlling her too much and she decided she did not like being treated that way.



Holly J wanted to be class president again this year, but Sav decided that it would look good for college if he was class president (Reasonable).



Holly J wants to go to Yale, but she found out that her parents lost all their savings and would not be able to send her to Yale unless she got a scholarship (as well as being accepted to Yale)



So Holly J tries to convince Sav out of running, because she knew that he would win based on his popularity, but he refused.



Holly J recruits Anya to pretend like she had gotten pregnant from the sex she and Sav had on prom night to get Sav to drop out of the race or to get him to recieve less votes for knocking a girl up.



Anya agrees to this for revenge purposes, but then decides that she loves Sav when he starts acting nice to her and trying to provide everything she and the "baby" would need. Anya then switches sides and helps Sav with his campaign.



CONTROVERSY?



Other than the whole faking a pregnancy thing, what bothers me is that Anya completly ditched Holly J for this boy who dumped her and was only taking her back based on a lie.



Holly J was not really a good friend to Anya, but to benidict arnold Holly J for her ex who wanted nothing to do with her prior to the pregnancy lie leaves me conflicted.



So should I feel sorry for Holly J and mad at Anya? Or proud that Anya took a stand against Holly J.



Either way, Anya used Holly J, and Holly J tried to use Anya. But Holly J has more at stake for winning the election than Sav does, although Sav has a future to plan for too.

But right now I am not liking Anya. It is a pretty bitchy move to put "misters" before "sisters", even if the "sisters" are not your closest friends.

But in reality, would I do the same thing as Anya by picking the ex boyfriend over the semi-gal friend?
NO
Because if a guy broke my heart and decided he would take me back based on a lie, than he is not worth my time.

The mormons do it again!

So I was hanging out with the mormons at Dove's place, and there was a non-member there asking about the hierarchy of the church. All of a sudden all the mormons (eight in total) get really excited and all start talking at once and finishing eachother's sentences. They start explaining about their beliefs and about the prophet and overloading this poor guy with information. Then it got really weird when they started talking about the 13 commandments. They started reciting them. All 8 mormons, reciting these commandments, and not insync either. I decided at that point that I needed to leave, because I am not a practicing mormon, and the way they got so excited over these questions about their church brought up the negative feelings I have for the church and the church members.

I really wish that the mormons could take a step back and NOT jump all over people who ask a simple question about their religion. It scares people away.

How disappointing...

I found out on tuesday that there are dvd's of me when I was younger, and this intrigued me. I really wanted to see how I acted and looked when I was younger, because I don't remember anything before age 13 due to a couple of bad car accidents.

So I have been waiting days, and days, AND DAYS
When
Mi padre FINALLY told me where the key to the safe was. So I open the safe and see that there are NO DVDs inside! I went back to him to find out where the missing DVDs were and we searched the basement and FINALLY FOUND THEM!

So I take the dvds up to my room to watch them on the computer. The first one shows as blank. So does the second, third, fourth and ALL OF THE DVDs ARE BLANK!

Heartbroken, and distraught I told mi padre about the lack of childhood memories on the dvds and he said that we have tapes that he can transfer to dvds.

So all hope is not lost, but I am tired of waiting for memories. I wonder if they would even enrich my life any?

Something funny

So while I was ranting about birthdays on my blog, apparently I was sitting on my computer mouse. Naked. Now I have a HUGE imprint of the computer mouse on my butt. IT HURTS!

Just a thought

Our calendar is so screwed up

The day of out births is not the same every year. I do not know what day of the week I was born because our dumb calendar. What if we baised our birthdays depending on the month and the days of the week instead of the "dates"? For example: If you were born on the second tuesday of the month, then every year, you would celebrate your birthday on the second tuesday of that month.

I wonder, would that make is less of a wait until ones birthday or more of a wait?

And, this may be a screwed up way to think about it, but if you count how many days until your birthday, your original birthday, from January 1st, would it even be in the same month as it was the year before? And what even constitutes the actuality of the starting or ending of a month? The simple rule that is taught in elementary school "Thiry days in September, April, June and November. All the rest have thirty-one except for Feburary", but what logic is that based off of? Why does November have 30 days and December has 31? And WHY ON EARTH does Feburary have 29 or 28 days depending on a "leap year"? And all those poor children who are born on Februrary 29th and do not get their actual birthday for every 3 years?

If the calendar was correct, wouldn't our birthdays be on the same date, day of the week, and month as the year before? And no birthdays would be omitted from the calendar?

How many days would constitute an actual year? Not the whole, 365 or whatever amount of days, but how many days it would take to reach the same day of the week and date as we were born. I think it may be more than 365. THEN THERE WOULD BE ALL THE OTHER BIRTHDAYS IN THE EXTRA MONTHS OR EXTRA DAYS OF THE MONTHS THAT WERE RECORDED WRONG!

RwaR. I guess it might be better to leave our screwed up calendar the way it is, TOO CONFUSING OTHERWISE!

ANGER MANAGMENT

So I got mad at mi hermano today
The doorbell rings

LEVEL OF ANGER: 0

My uncle came to visit
He brought me and mi hermano birthday cards
I called down to mi hermano to come say "hello" to my uncle
He did not respond

LEVEL OF ANGER: 1

I called again for mi hermano to come upstairs
Still no response
I go downstairs to see what is up, and I call his name
NOW he responds

LEVEL OF ANGER: 2

I walk over to him and ask why he did not respond earlier
He says that "now is not a good time"
I ask him why
It is because he can not beat his dumb video game

LEVEL OF ANGER: 3

I tell him that our uncle is here and he should visit
He says he does not want to

LEVEL OF ANGER: 4

I tell him that he should take a break from his video game and cool down
He says okay
I tell him to come visit with his uncle (My uncle lives in Florida and does not come up often)
He says no

LEVEL OF ANGER: 5

I blow up at mi hermano
Calling him a brat
Knowing that if he knew that our uncle was here to give him money
That he would gladly come upstairs

He was using that tone of voice
The type you would talk to something worthless to
He was using that tone of voice
On me

And he was mad over a game!
We always talk about if he gets mad
Especially at a game
To take a break

But does he listen?
NO

I thought our relationship as siblings had changed
I had helped him through some personal stuff
But then this

Maybe I am the one that needs to change?
I scared my dog
By screaming
Maybe I need some anger management

LEVEL OF ANGER: 0

BP Oil Spil

So I was reading an article on aol news entitled "To Boycott BP: Yes Or No?" by Kirk Seaman, and it made me think, too, if boycotting BP stations actually does anything.

I have had a brief conversation previously with my boi about this same subject when we were on our way to fuel up my car. He asked where to go and I replied "Anywhere but BP".

So, in reading this article, Kirk Seaman sided with the organization, The Sierra Club. The Sierra Club, who are not boycotting BP, are instead handing out flyers at gas stations to raise awareness about the problems with the country's dependancy on oil.

This is a fine idea, however, I feel like it is inaffective, for flyers are generally thrown away seconds after leaving the hand of the distributor.

BP should be held responsible for their negligence of deep sea drilling. In that effect, they should be made an example of to all the other oil companies who were thinking about taking some of the same risks BP did in destroying the enviornment for their precious black gold.

One of the reasons brought up in the article, was that station owners that are branded under the name of BP are also suffering. I may sound very bitter and inconsiderate for saying this, but, tough sh8t.

For buying into the system of working for the oil companies to distrubute oil instead of trying to find a way to stop the dependancy on oil, these station owners are getting what is coming to them. By patrionizing these stations, the message is being sent that these big oil companies cannot get away with destroying our natural resourses for fuel that will eventually become obsolete.

So, yea. Some of the American public do not know all the details about BP and the deep sea drilling, but they know that it has been taken to far, and I applaud them for boycotting BP.

I do agree, however, that some research should be done on which stations use BP oil (because apparently, BP sells to other gas stations their gas without using the label.

Sales on BP gas have already gone down from 10%-40% in some BP stations.

I will follow up on this article and do some research about ways that I can keep my car, but not use gasoline anymore.

To read the article from aol news, the link is
http://translogic.aolautos.com/2010/07/21/to-boycott-bp-yes-or-no/

Hate is a strong word, but I really really really don't like you...

I can't laugh
At her 'jokes'
As she calls them
But it is teasing

Ha. ha. ha
How funny
How can it be funny
When you know it bothers me

She is kidding
Ha. ha. ha
So funny
What's so funny?

Do you want this?
How about this?
Or maybe, this?
It goes on and on.

What she thinks is funny
Is the look on my face
As it turns red
And my eyes roll

She knows it's annoying
But that is part of the fun
To belittle me
To bother me

To constantly be talking
With nothing to say
Just to hear her own voice
Hilarious

Even when she isn't blabbing her mouth off
Embarassing me and herself
Every move she makes
I can hear what she would have to say

Oh, why that is rude!
I wonder why people do that...
I am a victim and deserve better
And the famous

Do you want this?
How about this?
Maybe, this?
It goes on and on.

And what can I say to her?
No, stop trying to give me things
Or you are being annoying for caring?
That is EXACTLY what she wants you to say

So she can say later
She doesn't love me
She doesn't like to talk to me
She hates me

"Hate is a strong word,
But I (sometimes) really really
Really don't like you"

So Confused

"When She Loved Me" - Disney's Toy Story 2 Song

This is so sad, the first time I heard it, I almost cried...

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour spent together
Lives within my heart

And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy so was I
When she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
We had each other that was all
Just she and I together
Like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me

So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she'd say
I will always love you

Lonely and forgotten
Never thought she'd look my way
And she smiled at me
And held me
Just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour spent together
Lives within my heart

When she loved me....

SO SAD! I TEARED UP JUST WRITING IT!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=tt4wpEygT9Q : the song being sung by Jordan Pruitt

Cool gothic online store

www.pyramidcollection.com

gothic artwork, jewelry, apparel and a few intimates ;)

VANITY PLATES 3

BJ SUSHI & 1911GO

VANITY PLATES 2

It only lets me post 2 pixs at a time :-/

2PHR35H & JOHDAN

VANITY PLATES

JEHJIRE & KIDFXR

VEG-POST: Gummy Worms

http://hubpages.com/hub/How-to-make-VEGAN-Gummi-Worms

The recipe has one ingredient I'm not familiar with; agar agar powder.
The rest of the ingredients seem pretty simple: corn starch, fruit juice, and salt. I hope that these taste like ACTUAL gummy worms.....

ALSO you need a "worm mold" and a "smashin' plate"

Kinda confusing instructions, but I'm gonna try it!

I
WILL
REPOST
WITH
RESULTS!

Long time no post

So it has been a while since I last posted, and I'm gonna update this blog!


I am now vegetarian, so I will be making VEG-BLOG posts every now and then of recipes for candies or other treats that can be made without the use of animal products!

I will continue posting up VANITY PLATE PIXS

HOWEVER, I will not be posting my day to day activities, for it takes too long.
I will rant every now and then, so don't worry, you will still get to hear about the wonderful drama of the kitty (me).

I am also going to post song lyrics that catch my attention, so be on the look out for that :D

Beach Pictures

Some pretty beach pictures I wanted to share with you

Sleepy Poem

Why should it matter that I sleep alone tonight?
I should be used to it by now
But sleeping next to you feels so right
I wonder if I can even remember how

To get comfortable without your arms
Without you pressed against me
Knowing that dreams of lakes and farms
have nothing on this boy that I see

But don't we all die alone?
So why should one night matter
Maybe to wake up another day grown
Whether skinneir or fatter

And to feel cared for
Right when you wake up
To not have to ask for anything more
But to say "mornin, 'sup?"


Frog

Thusday

So I woke up at 6am and updated my blog. I spent 2 HOURS writing about saturday to wednesday. I felt so proud of myself when I finished,

Then I went downstairs and cleaned up the basement a bit. I saw my doggie and she got up off of her comfy couch, wagged her tail, and ran over to me when she saw that I had a treat in my hand!!

***SIDENOTE***We got my doggie from a petsmart adoption drive, and she was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO scared! She wouldnt even walk around. It was almost impossible to get her in the car to take her home, and when we took her home, she hid inbetween our sheds where no one could get to her. It took us weeks for her to get comfortable with just broham and me, and she still isnt comfortable with the rest of the fam. She doesnt usually wag her tail, she always hids her head, and gets REALLY scared whenever there are visitors. We dont know how old she is, because the adoption people said "from 2-3 years old" while the vet said "from 3-6 years old". Also her supposed original weight was "50lbs" she is apparently over 100lbs!!! Padre has been fighting me about keeping doggie since I got her, and I have taken on the full responsibility of feeding her, giving her attention, taking her out and walking her***SIDENOTE***

Also when I sat down with doggie today, she walked OVER broham to get to me and I petted her for a good while.

Then I went to the grocery store, and got the food madre requested.

Afterwards I came home, showered and went with Shaggy over to the watering hole he had been telling me about. We had to walk deep into a forest and when we got there we had to walk a mile on sharp rocks. The water was SOOO COLD! But I still had fun. We threw around a football for a little while until we got too cold and walked back to the car.

He took me to McDonalds for lunch, and I got a Big Mac(I felt disgusting afterwards but I hadnt had one in such a long time, and I hoped that they had gotten healthier >.<) and we drove over to a park to eat. After we ate we jumped around on this "springy" toy thing and then I stole his shoes. He takled me really hard, and bruised my shins. :(

After Shaggy took me home I went on FB for a little while and saw that my friend(who I hadnt talked to in a couple years) was presenting some of her art at the HS art show, and I decided that I wanted to go see it. When I got there, SHAGGY WAS THERE TOO and he acted all awkward when he saw me. I looked around until I could find my friend's art work but I couldnt find it and I tried to leave. As I was walking out I saw her from down the hallway(Lets call her Chanel, like the famous designer Chanel) anyways, and Chanel saw me and RAN from her end of the hallway over to where I was. She hugged me and I hugged her. I missed that girl.

She told me about where she was going to college and showed me where her art was displayed. She had made the most beautiful jewelery, had pretty photographs, and very detailed paintings. Chanel's friend's little sister came up to me for some reason, and introduced herself, saying that I was really pretty and that she liked my necklace! WOW! That NEVER happens! It was the cutest thing! She followed me and Chanel around for a bit, hugging me every now and then, and then I had to head back home to have dinner with Gpa and broham. I hope that I can keep in contact with Chanel like we have been planning to....

So I get home, and madre is there. She asks for our (me and broham's) help in bringing down my old bedframe and matress so that she could deliver it to her friend from work. It took us a while, but we got all the pieces down the stairs and into her car. She left and Gpa, broham and me went to Anthony's Restaurant for dinner.

It was a little more crowded than usual, but the scenery was still nice. We chitchatted until the food came about old movies and new movies, with Gpa constantly saying how nice it was that I came. I got a BBQ chicken sub and it was really good. I also got flan for dessert (not so good. maybe im just not a flan person.) There were at least 3 birthday parties going on at Anthony's and the children were somewhat well behaved, as well behaved as sugarhigh kids could be. AND THERE WAS THIS LADY WITH THE MOST BEAUTIFUL, POOFY CURLY HAIR! I never thought poofy curly hair could look so pretty, but she pulled it off so well!

I went back home and got a call from Dove about hanging out with the moremans at fatugly's house. I said yes, and she came and picked me up. We were almost there, with 2 of her friends from BYU and her brother CMAN in the car, when she decides to invite Bring'em too. We get to his house, and he has to lie across me, CMAN and one of the BYU girls.

We get to fatugly's house and there is a large group of the moremans playing on the zipline and hanging out on the top of the tree house. We hung out there for a while(I didnt want to do the zipline) and then we(Littleman, the 2 BYU girls, Dove and Cman) went on a creek adventure walk.(2nd one today!) We walk all the way to this rope swing and my feel are KILLING ME. We hanng around the rope swing for a while then make our way back to the house. On the way back, I TRIP and fall into the creek. GREAT. So I am soaking wet while everyone else is dry.

So on the way back to the house, one of the BYU girls pulls me aside and starts talking to me about Converse shoes. AWESOME! ANOTHER CONVERSE ENTHUSIAST!! :D.....I am such a dork....

Then we go into the house, and everyone branches off to do their own thing. Some moremans are making crepes, some are playing ping pong and some are swinging on the indoor swing, and I am just standing, making a puddle of water and blood, and I was afraid to move and make a mess. I started feeling weary and sick and lonely, so I called madre to pick me up and I called my boi to talk to while I waited for her.

Madre picks me up and takes me home and makes me a bath! ^.^ I felt like I was 5 years old getting ready for bath time, except I was unable to stand on my feel from all the bruising they had taken.

I wash off and call my boi over to hang out. I missed him SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!! And then we went to bed ;)

"HUGE" Cast has a familiar face

So I was watching the MTV Movie Awards last night on my TiVo, and I saw a preview for this new show called "HUGE", which is about a lot of overweight girls having drama? DUMB

Anyways, as I was speeding through the commercial I saw..............

ZOEY FROM FIREFLY!

Her real name is Gina Torres, and now she is on this TV Series "HUGE" as a Dr. ?

I am not going to watch the series but It is so cool to see her face again. She doesnt look different at all.

The pics are of her in firefly, and her most recent picture. "HUGE" premieres June 28th.

OMG GLEE

THE SEASON FINALE OF GLEE WAS ON TUESDAY BUT I WATCHED IT WEDNESDAY NIGHT.

I wont say what happened but dont read any further unless you have seen it. Highlight the next passage for spoilers.

I am so glad that Rachel and Finn are together FINALLY, but it was kinda sudden. I feel like they could have transitioned that better. And RANDOMLY Will decides he loves EMMA? THEY HADNT TALKED MUCH SINCE EMMA GOT MAD AT HIM FOR BEING A MAN WHORE. Again, sudden? I was skeptical about the regionals being all about journey, but they pulled it off pretty well. Vocal Adrenaline was best though. I LOVED HOW THEY DID QUEEN AND HOW THE QUEEN SONGS WERE PERFECT FITTING FOR QUINN TO HAVE HER BABY WITH! Also, Rachel's mom is dumb for looking at Rachel as a lost cause. Quinn should have kept her baby and NOT given it to Rachel's mom for adoption. That was dumb. But suprise? Glee has another year. SHOCKER. That was pretty obvious, although I was suprised that they didnt win regionals.

So there is my Glee rant. I liked the last season finale better though.

Wednesday

I woke up with my boi :)

FOOD

I took my boi out to lunch at the Hong Kong Palace (that I went with mi madre to a week ago? Something like that...) The food was really good again! We got vegitarian dumplings, he got Kung Pao Tofu, and I got Schezwan Beef. YUMMY but that makes me remember that I left my food IN THE CAR! SH*T!

I then took my boi to URASIAN (I dont know if I spelled that right, I was spelling it like it sounds...) to get his car that got dropped off yesterday (for no reason except that his dad wanted his car and used my boi's car to get to the mechanics, and just left it there!)

***SIDENOTE***I am so suprised that my boi wasnt upset about his dad leaving his car at urasian. I would have been SOOOOOOOOOOO PISSED***SIDENOTE***

So I dropped my boi off with his car and went home to find that I FINALLY GOT MY NEW BED! YAY! IT IS SOOOOOOOO BIG!
I put some final touches, like new sheets, on the bed and it is SOOOO COMFY!

I miss my boi a lot though, but I know we need to spend some time to ourselves, Im not TOO lonely

And Tuesday..?

I DONT REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED TUESDAY!!! THIS IS SO HORRIBLE!

I remember I spent the day with my boi, and I had a really fun time.
We went to the grocery store on Tuesday...I THINK....
At the grocery store he got such healthy, organic food (minus the lime green fruit punch. That is just unatural ;)) I really admire that about him, that he stays so healthy.

And we were going to go to Costco, but decided to have our own fun instead ;) so we walked over to my place and hung out. He is AMAZING!!

He made this amazing pasta later that night from the groceries he bought. IT TASTED SOOO GOOD :)

We went into DC and drove to the Washington Monument. It is so pretty at night :)
We realized we had been spending so much time together that we were getting bored of the things to do here. Not of eachother, just of the area, and the activities in the area. We decided to try and spend some time apart, to get stuff done that we needed to do (for ourselves and just chores)

Still, I had him over for the night again, and we watched more firefly :)

No word from A-man since Staurday :)

Also, I installed a texting app on my itouch. THAT should help me stay in contact with people!

Then there was Monday

So I woke up with my boi at my side ^.^ I was soooooo happy!!

FOOD/DRAMA

We went to Moby Dick's for lunch and I saw my ex-best friend Pickles there. I tried to be nice and say "hi" but he looked at me, didnt smile, and gave me the sideways "peace" sign. What a jerk, wouldnt even talk to me, much less look at me after all the sh*t we had gone through. Oh well. Better off I guess.
My boi tried to order the vegitarian sandwhich but ended up with the salad :(. The bread was really good, and the food was alright, but next time if I were to go to Moby Dicks, I would get the sandwhich like I had when my boi's sister was in town. And I hope that my boi gets that same sandwhich that he liked so much then too. It was kinda disappointing.

At Moby Dick's however we took on different lives, my boi was a writer from Poland and I was a Hanna Montana impersonator. I had such a good time doing that.

We spent the entire day together and I believe we saw Iron Man 2 on Monday? I cant remember which day for sure...BUT THAT IS WHY I NEED TO KEEP UP WITH MY BLOGGING!

Iron Man 2 was AWESOME! The cheerleaders in the beginning were SO HOT (at least I thought so) and the action in that movie was so cool! Technology=CRAZY! I really enjoyed the movie, especially when Tony is fighting all those robots in the end. SO INTENSE :)

It was an awesome day.

We also watched Firefly. I LOVE THAT SHOW!

...And Sunday?

So I wake up at 8am (SO EARLY!) to get ready for church at 9am.
-Why?
-Because the moremans had invite me to there little thing last night and I had a really good time

So I sit through Sacrament (the part of church where you sit and listen to people who were picked that week by "God" to speak about lessons relating to church) AND IT IS TESTIMONY SUNDAY

To all unfamiliar with the moreman church,
Testimony Sunday is when there is no set speakers during Sacrament and intead leave the podium open to all that "feel the spirit" to speak about how the church has enhanced their lives.
UGH

So it starts out cute, with little kids, no older then 8 years old, going up to the podium proclaiming their love for the church (maybe cute wasnt the right word, CREEPY kinda fits the mold better) then some memeber who are moving from the area talk about how great the church is.

So this goes on for about 2 hours and we "split" for classes. I used to be a part of the senior class, but now I am too old for the senior class and too young for the adults class (Technically I am the right age for the adult's class, but the class has parents in it, and I still feel like a kid) So I get upset and leave.

Dove messages me on FB to see why I ditched, and blamed my insecurities on SATAN...I think she lost her mind....

Then I talked to Scooby again, and he had finished his application to the skate shop in tysons and needed a ride there, since no buses were out on Sunday and he needed to get the application in that day. I drove him there and back, and we talked a little bit. Nothing really interesting, just talking about nothing.

AND MY BOI CAME HOME!!! YAYAYAYA I MISSED HIM SO MUCH!
AND HE BROUGHT ME CHOCOLATE! HOW SWEET!
We spent the afternoon and most the night together. (I had to ditch for a little while because I made plans with some friends to meet for pizza) And my boi was so kind to drive me there!

So my two friends:
Stubborn: She is very opinionated and very upfront and confrontal. She is vegitarian, but not because she is against eating animals but for a bet. She makes sure that whenever she goes out to eat, whoever she is with CANNOT have ANY meat in their dish.
Bubbley: She is really sweet, always happy, and very quiet. Very smart girl too.

We used to hang out a lor in junior year, going out to get food and watching movies. Stubborn and I have a weird relationship in which we tease eachother a lot. And she is kinda judgy. The first thing she said when she saw me was that I "look different". As does she, I mean, she gained a little bit of weight and lost her chin somehow... but she is still the same girl I knew before. So we are at this pizza place, Pulcinellas, and we got a pizza to split. The pizza was very good, but I wish that I had gotten more to eat...
We caught up on eachothers lives a little. I found out that Stubbornhad trouble with her first roomate and Bubbley had joined a sorority. I told them about community college, and how I was applying for transfer. I also told them about A-man. They disapproved of A-man from the start. And from how I talked about my boi, they were impressed. It was nice to catch up with them again.
My boi picked me up and we spent the rest of the night together.
It was AMAZING. He is AMAZING :)

What happened Saturday>?

So I woke up late on Saturday after a night of fun on friday. Still missing my boi of course. He called me because he missed me :) HOW SWEET!

So I go on FB and talk to Scooby again. It is my old HS's prom, and everyone I know who is younger than me is out getting ready for the prom.

***SIDENOTE***I didnt go to my senior prom because I was dating A-man and he didnt want to go senior year, eventhough I wanted to. And I had a really fun time when I went junior year. So prom brings up some mixed feelings***SIDENOTE***

Scooby was going to an anti-prom, but had nothing to do all day, so I picked him up and we went to tysons to get food.

FOOD

We got Panda Express, and the food was only okay.

We ended up passing a new skate shop in tysons and I told him that he should see if there are any openings(since he had previously been complaining about his job at the retirement home and likes everything pertaining to skateboarding/skating) and the girl working there was accepting applications and almost hired him on the spot!

I took him home so that he could fill out his application asnd get ready for anti-prrom. I wasnt invited to ANY prom/anti-prom activites and felt a little bitter/sad.

DRAMA

Then A-man called. I figured that I would talk to him since I wasnt doing anything better. The conversation went differently then our conversations had gone lately, it was less "boohoo I am so sad you left me and dont love me anymore" and a lot of "you lied to me for most of the relationship and we wouldnt have broken up if you werent such a liar".

RANT TIME
I WOULDNT BE SUCH A LIAR IF HE WASNT SUCH A JERK! I GAVE HIM ALL OF ME IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, AND HE TREATED ME LIKE SH*T. HE WOULD GET MAD WHENEVER I TALKED TO ANYONE OTHER THAN HIM. HE SWITCHED ALL OF HIS CLASSES TO HAVE THE SAME SCHEDULE AS MINE IN HS SO HE COULD KEEP A WATCH ON ME AND MAKE SURE I WASNT TALKING TO ANYONE ELSE. HE GOT ME IN TROUBLE IN MY OCEANOGRAPHY CLASS FOR HIM MAKING A SCENE OVER NOTHING AND ME HAVING TO FOLLOW HIM OUT OF THE CLASSROOM TO MAKE SURE HE DIDNT F*CKING KILL HIMSELF! I GOT F*CKING DETENTION BECAUSE I LEFT CLASS MID CLASS, AND FOR THAT LITTLE PRICK! NOT ONLY THAT BUT WHEN HE WANTED TO SKIP CLASS AND I DIDNT, HE WOULD BE ALL PISSY AND SAD UNTIL I SKIPPED CLASS WITH HIM. I ALMOST DIDNT GRADUATE HS, MISSED PROM, MISSED WALKING AT GRADUATION ALL BECAUSE HE DIDNT FEEL LIKE GOING. WHENEVER I HAD AN OPINION OF SOMETHING, IF IT DIDNT MATCH HIS THEN IT HAD TO CHANGE TO BE LIKE HIS OR ELSE IT WOULD BECOME PART OF OUR CONSTANT BICKERING. HE WOULD EVEN GET SO ANGRY WITH ME WHEN I WOULD GET ANGRY WITH HOW CONTROLLING HE WAS THAT HE WOULD HIT ME. I HAD NO FRIENDS IN MY SENIOR YEAR OF HS, AND HE EXPECTED ME TO LIVE THIS WAY FOREVER? NO WAY JOSE!
SO YES, I LIED TO HIM, I TOLD HIM I WAS GOING TO SLEEP WHEN I WOULD GO OUT TO HANG WITH THE MOREMANS AND THAT I WAS PLAYING VIDEOGAMES WHEN I WOULD HANG OUT WITH "PICKLES"(one of my best friends of the time) AND I WOULD CHEAT ON HIM BECAUSE I WANTED TO DATE AND DID NOT THINK I WOULD BE ABLE TO BREAK UP WITH HIM WITHOUT HIM KILLING HIMSELF OR HIM KILLING ME...

*cough* *cough*
so anyways.......

After I talked on the phone with A-man, I was feeling pretty down on myself, thinking I wasnt good enough for my boi or for anyone, that I was nothing but a liar and a cheater, and should do so much more then I have been doing to be a better person.

SPOILER: THIS SELF ESTEEM ISSUE COMES UP LATER IN THE WEEK AND IS SOMEWHAT RESOLVED

Then Dove calls, she and some of the Moremans were gonna get together, play some board games and watch a movie. She wanted me to come :) so of course I said yes :)

I get picked up by littleman and Dove, and we go to pick up this BYU girl that I am going to call Tingley (apparently the most BEAUTIFUL of all the moreman girls, although I dont see the appeal...and I am bisexual). We also pick up Bring'em. We go over to Dove's house to be greeted with 4 other people

MORE MOREMANS:
Toothless: so named because he is missing his two front teeth
MiniKassie: a little sister of one of the older Moremans I know, but never hang out with
Homopho: the little brother of another Moreman "Keith" who is extremly homophobic
CMAN: (hahahahaa that is what his family ACTUALLY calls him!) Dove's younger brother

We play this game called currses (the name got me really excited because I thought "curses" were refferring to curse words...) but the game was about doing silly challenges and being able to put a "curse" on someone else who is playing. The curse would be something like, they have to bark everytime someone picks up a card or something silly like that. Some of them were pretty funny. The "curses" I got were to talk with my nose plugged and to hold bunny rabbit ears over my head everytime I talked. T'was interesting.

After that we watched the Land Before Time...5 I think? But the characters were so cute! The songs "Big Water" and "Friends for Dinner" were very catchy!

Then we started watching youtube. Mostly silly stuff, like "Cat Massage" and a spoof on "Eclipse of the Heart"

The I went home and went to bed. Pretty happy, especially since my boi wans coming home tomarrow!! :D

Blogging FAIL

So I DID IT AGAIN! :(

Except this time was sooooooooooo much worse! I havent updated my blog since Saturday morning at 1am! So I am going to go day by day what I remember happening until I get back to present day. IVE GOT TO STOP FALLING BEHIND ON THIS!

WOW

I DIDNT WRITE ANYTHING FOR THIS BLOG FOR A WHOLE DAYYY!! OH NO!!! O.O

And yes, that is a BAD THING since I want to keep track of my feelings and thoughts on this thing. It is just...always so hard to start. :-/

So here we gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

The day before yesterday (thursday) A-man called once to try to "talk". NO WAY JOSE! But I havent heard anything from him since. I guess I should probably check my email...

And with my moremen friends, we went out to the Buffalo Wings Factory. Home of the "FLATLINERS" (spicy chicken wings so hot that the owners make you sign a waiver before you can eat them) I got some yummy spicy bbq wings that got more spicy the more you ate. And I got endless, eventhough I only ate about 14 or so wings...

Now I will go into a rant about some of the "moremans"
There is...
Miniman, who is a nice guy but is so obsessed with what other people think of him that he tries to be friends with everyone
Dove, who I name so because she is very sweet and caring and innocent. Probably my closest moreman friend
Fatuglywhorebitch.....name explains my feelings about her
and
Bring'em who is my favorite moreman guy to hang out with because he is easy to talk to, but he is a pathological liar (comes up with entertaining stories from those lies) and constantly pushes limits without any cause

So Bring'em decided that he wanted the "flatliners", so he signed the waiver and started eating them. He wanted to get on "the board" which was in the back of the resturaunt with all of the names of people who have eaten at least 10 "flatliners". So he is eating and gets to about 16 and starts acting like he is gonna puke. I take Bring'em outside so he can make a mess in the trashcan and im rubbing his back the entire time he pukes. GROSS. Bring'em thought he was done puking and turns to me to talk. BAD DECISION. He got puke on my shirt (MEGA GROSS) and pukes for a few more minutes.

After Bring'em's body rejecting the chicken wings, you would think he is done right? WRONG. He goes back in and eats 5 more "flatliners" to put the number "21" on "the board". He gets to that point and starts puking again. I was still there to rub his back and keep him hydrated and clean (eventhough I was extremely annoyed that he would put his body through torture AGAIN)

All in all, I had a really good time at the Buffalo Wings Factory. The company was good and I was entertained and satisfied with my yummy wings. Although I dont know if I can ever eat wings again after Bring'em's dumb dumb DUMB attempt at eating "flatliners"

***SIDENOTE*** I appriciate that Bring'em went for the challenge, but it was a MAJOR sign of weakness in my book for him to grovel at the manager to allow him to eat MORE wings to hike up his total wing count. Shouldnt it be good enough that his name is up there>? Why does it matter how many you ate if it isnt the most ever eaten in a sitting?
#1 I dont think it should count as "21" because he puked 16 of them up. Harsh but true.
#2 It is soooo very bad for you to force your body to take food that it OBVIOUSLY doesnt want! All the stomach acid gets in your throat and eats away at it....people DIE that way. ***SIDENOTE***

On a different note, later that night...

My boi slept over and had to leave early this morning for a trip that he doesnt get back from UNTIL SUNDAY AFTERNOON! OH MUY GOSHHHH I MISS HIM SO MUCH ALREADY!!!

So after I took my boi to his home I played Sims. from 11am-5pm. DEPRESSING (although I did enjoy myself) I GOT NOTHING ACCOMPLISHED IN THOSE HOURS OF MY DAY :/

The mi madre, abuleo, broham and I went to Amoo's Kabob for dinner. The food was good, I got some type of spicy chicken on a stick AND THE RICE WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!

Then I came back home and did all my chores. Walking doggie, cleaning poop (hehehe poop ^.^)
laundry and stuff. AND MY BOI CALLED FROM....lets just say another state...!!!!!!!!!! HE IS SO SWEET! I MISS HIM SO MUCH AND MY BED IS GONNA BE SOOOOOOOO LONELY TONIGHT :'(

After I talked to my boi I started to play more Sims, when an old highschool buddy (friend #1) IM'ed me to hang out tonight (last night) and I invited a mutual friend of ours (friend #2) to come along too. We (me, friend #1 who we will call "Shaggy" and friend #2 who we will call "Scooby") went to this creek that was OVER 6 FEET DEEP!! AND HAD A ROPE SWING!!

It was about a mile walk into the forest to get to this swimming hole; we were wearing our bathing suits under our clothing. So we got in the water (it is past 11pm at this point) and we couldnt see ANYTHING. scarryyy. But we swam in it for a while, and NO I DIDNT DO THE ROPE SWING. I was too scared. Especially because I couldnt see where I would be falling!

***SIDENOTE*** I am a scaredy kitty, but only because I am so happy with my life right now that I wouldnt want some dumb injury, or you know, death, on my part to ruin this amazing summer I am having***SIDENOTE***

My legs are COVERED in bites :( and I am not sure which are bug bites and which are poison ivy... (double sad face) :( :(

So then we got in my car and I took Shaggy home, and talked with Scooby about how his life was going until about 1am.

Now I am missing my boi more than ever. I hope he is having a great time....

And I am a little concerned about my kidney. Ever since I got home, it has been hurting in the general area of which the kidney is found (I only have my right kidney left (HAHAHA RIGHT KIDNEY LEFT)) BUT THIS IS NO LAUGHING MATTER!

So it is kinda hurting around that area, but I am hoping that after I get some sleep the pain will start to go away. I am already drinking as much water as my body can handle, and hoping the pain dies down. Maybe it is just a kidney stone? I will keep you updated on this matter.

Unappreciated? Or am I under appreciating?

So yesterday I got to spend the whole day with my boi and it was absolutely AMAZING :)
And I was so sad to have to take him home today :(

also, I was kinda being a bitch about him calling me verse me calling him. SORRY SUGARBOOGER!

The bed(s) didn't come, because Matress Wearhouse ran out of matresses, so my new bed(s) will be coming on either monday or wednesday. (I STILL wish that they could have called to tell us that they ran out instead of making us wake up at such an ungodly hour to wait for matresses that were not coming...)

The Sims 3 Ambitions FINALLY loaded and is working (after a full day to download) and is extremely addicting!


DRAMA

So today mi madre was at work and I got a knock on the door from a cop (I was scared sh*tless)

He gives me some court papers to give to mi madre regarding my aunt's will.
I call her at work and I continue to do my chores and clean and take care of mi familia with whatever else I can do to try to clean the house.

She calls me back and gives me a lecture about getting a job and not spending so much time having fun. I had this same conversation with padre about a week ago, and he told me that he needed me to work around the house and clean up after everybody. AND THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING! (Sorry; a little angry about the whole situation)

She doesn't give me a chance to get a word in about how padre said not to get a job, and continues to make me feel useless until I am almost in tears. THANKS MADRE :/

I try to enjoy life to the fullest and do things that make me happy, whether it is playing animal crossing or sims, to hanging out with friends and my boi. Everytime I seem to be enjoying myself too much mi madre gets all moody and brings me down from my happy moods (everytime and successfully, might I add). Eventhough I try to enjoy the little things in life that make me happy, I still go out of my way to do things for my family and clean and TRY MY BEST to do what they ask to an extent.

But here is the thing. Am I the one who is being under appreciated, or am I simply being a spoiled brat?

My parents go to work everyday to bring home money to allow me to do what I want to do when I want to do it. So SHOULD I be submissive to their bickering and criticisms as long as I am living in their house?

Why isn't home life ever easy? Someone is always unhappy. :/

Wouldn't it be a cool job to have?

Glass Blowing

Think about it,

you get to make really cool things, you get to be using fire, and it is all hand crafted! (and nature crafted...but you get my point)

I would love to get creative and to make beautiful things out of glass from vases to sculptures to all sorts of handy things! LIKE SPOONS OR DINING WEAR!

HOW COOL WOULD IT BE TO HAVE A BUNCH OF GLASS MADE HOUSEHOLD UTENSILS!

Or glass made anything at that!

I am such a dork! But I still think it would be really cool. I don't know if there are any classes at mi universidad that would be for glass blowing. I mean, it is KINDA dangerous and there is not a high demand for glass blowers and there is not a high demand for people who want to take glass blowing classes. If not as a profession, I still think it would be an awesome skill to have.

You can make gifts for friends, or sell some of the cool things you make through another store or ebay/amazon. AND a great conversation starter?

"What do you do in your spare time?"

"I BLOW GLASS B*TCH!"

How bad*ss!

Why aren't things working today?

I started installing the Sims 3 Ambitions game last night around 10pm.

ITS NOW 10am THE NEXT MORNING AND IT ISNT EVEN HALF-WAY DONE INSTALLING!!!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'll have to change the settings on my computer so that it will stop "sleeping" after 30minutes. I hope THAT helps.sleeping"

Also, today happens to be the SAME DAY that my bed(s) are supposed to arrive. The man that we bought the matress(es) from SAID that they would call between 7:30am and 9am THIS MORNING to deliever the matress(es).

I repeat,
IT IS NOW 10am!
Mi madre had to leave for some appointment, leaving me to watch the windows and listen for the phone call. RWAR. I DONT LIKE DEALING WITH PEOPLE IN THE MORNING! ESPECIALLY PEOPLE THAT DONT COME ON TIME!


***SIDENOTE***I figure that they have got better things to do or are really busy and have a tight schedule, but they should at least call to tell us that they are late so that we arent waiting around all morning for a delivery that may or may not be coming; based off of a promise made by a matress salesman***SIDENOTE***

so, GOOD MORNING WORLD! And I can only hope that things start going smoothly-err

DRAMA

UGHHH!!!!!!!!

So I checked my email to find out that A-man has been sending me ESSAYS of emails, and that he was planning on calling me tonight.

GREAT :/

I sent him an email back to let him know that I have gotten his emails, but that I do not want to talk to him and that I do not want him to call me tonight.

I REALLY hope he doesnt call me tonight.

I miss my boi already!!!

1st of June!

So, freebies on neopets by going to www.neopets.com/freebies
and the sims 3 ambitions comes out today!

What a dayy

So today, NO DRAMA!

A-man hasn't called in a full two days! YESS! (The Animal Crossing Victory song is playing in my head right now)

I had a very nice dinner with my family, and the mormon missoinaries (they were quiet so they werent so bad)

I took apart my bed so that when my new bed(s) come in tomarrow, there wont be any problem setting them up :D

I brushed kitty until he was nice and fluffy, and fed doggie some yummy leftovers from dinner.

and I feel really good about the way I look today :D. Twas a good day

HOW CUTE!

So, I am a converse shoes kinda girl, and I was on this website called modcloth.com


and I saw the coolest/cutest socks EVER!

Definitions

So definitions of the people in my life that I am talking about without giving away their actual names:

A-man: crazy ex-boyfriend
my boi: my current boyfriend
broham: my brother
mi madre: my mother
padre: my father
doggie: my dog
kitties: my cats
kitty: one of my cats

and I am sure there are more to come as I talk about my daily life, I will make up more names for the people I encounter.
:D

NEW SIMS 3 EXPANSION PACKK......wow I am such a dork!

I know I am a dork for liking and playing Sims so often but...
YOU GET TO ACTUALLY DO THE JOB!!

(To all non-Sims players, what happens is when you get your Sim a job, each day at a certain time you send them to work, and wait until they come back. But supposedly in this expansion pack, you go with them to work and work as whatever their profession is!)

And they are cool professions! Like a firefighter, or a ghost hunter, or a tattoo artist, or a doctor, or a private investigator and (supposedly) MORE! :D

***SIDENOTE*** The more I am explaining this and thinking about it, the more embarrassed I am about myself and about my hobbies; I should be looking harder for a job or doing chores or SOMETHING USEFUL, but instead I am blogging about a dumb computer game which wont even matter a year from now. ***SIDENOTE***

Anyways. Comes out June 1st....yea. :/

GOOD MORNING WORLD! Oh, it's afternoon already.........

I woke up about 3 times this morning, at 8am, 11am and 12pm. Gosh I am so lazy.......

And I really miss my boi. :(

DRAMA

So I tried to talk to A-man last night, so that he would stop calling and leaving me bunches of voicemail messages. I called him around 11pm and talked to him until 1am-ish (if you can call that talking). He pretty much did all the talking. I asked him what questions he had so that he could ask me over the phone and STOP CALLING. He asked if I cheated, if I lied and if I cared about him then. The usual questions he always asks. After like 2 minutes of questions he gives me this huge speech about how he knows that I am dating someone else, and that he wants me to be happy, but wants me to be with him and blahhh blahhh BLAHHHH. 2 hours of him ranting about feelings that he thinks that he has and changing his mind every other sentence. my head is still spinning the morning (afternoon) after! I let him know around 12am that I was getting tired and bitter and he needed to wrap up his little speech. Of course he didn't listen, because the conversation went on until 1-fkkin-am. Nothing has changed with him. I am never getting back with that abusive sh*t.
It was really stupid to try to call him. I will never be able to convince him that he and I are done. I'm not calling A-man again!

Vanity Plates

So I have decided that I am going to start taking pictures of the lincense plates that say names or words, you know, VANITY PLATES! Ever since I saw the plate "QOOOOQ" as someone's plate, I decided I wanted to take pictures of other people's plates that were cool in that way. I didn't start taking pics until my boi pointed out a plate that said "P1RATE" and had a bunch of pirate things around it. Fast foward to now, I am taking pics, and posting them here!

Tattoo ideas?

So after a lot of thought, I have come to the conclusion that I want to get some tattoos on myself. One idea that keeps coming to mind is a pair of folded wings on my back. In blue flames? Kinda like this:

New start, and a BLOG?!?!

So, I was going to write a book with the title "This Dimension That I Live" but I feel that if I write a blog it would be an easier place to start. SO..................

Here it is. My BLOG. I don't know where to start or what to do. I mean, I know you can post pictures and stuff, but where to start? I guess I will just start with today.

WHERE I WENT TODAY

This morning (technically afternoon, but it was after I woke up) I went with mi madre over to a Matress Wearhouse to get a new bed. I REALLY want a king-sized bed, so I have room to roll over (I have had a single bed my whole life, and have CONSTANTLY fallen out of that dang thing!).

PROBLEM: my door is too small to fit a king-sized bed through it.

SOLUTION: two twin sized beds and strap them together!
So we ordered two twins and a foot-board to use as a head-board (because a head-board will not fit through my door either).
So that will be here on Wednesday, and I hope it all goes well!

***SIDENOTE*** I feel so priveleged and extremely spoiled that I even get the opportunity to have a new bed. A king-sized bed at that! I am so lucky.***SIDENOTE***

FOODS

After the beds, we went to this really nice chinese restaurant"Hong Kong Restaurant" and got some yummy food. Mi madre and I split a serving of dumplings, spring rolls and general tso's chicken (omm nom nom). SOOOOO FULL

DRAMA?

Of course there is drama today. But I will spare these details for another day when my head isnt spinning :/