im living in hell
there is no god, there is no devil
this world is a cruel and evil place
and i am not sure i want to be a part of it anymore
people kill eachother for no reason
people kill eachother because they like it
people we love and let close to us let us down
the only reason they are there is to fail you
to bring you down too
you cant let yourself love anyone because if you let your gaurd down
you will be destroyed
this life means nothing and when you die you are nothing
so if i die, then i am nothing
i would rather be nothing then a part of something so horrible
as this dimention that i live in
the good times are only there to make the bad times so much worse
logic only exists to be twisted by those who can
love doesnt exist
i thought i was in love, not only once but twice
the first time i thought i was wrong because i was manipulated
the second time was all a lie
friends are only there to go behind your back and destroy you from behind
enemies are the only ones you can trust because at least their intentions are out in the open
no one is innoscent
no one tells the truth
no one says what they mean
every day passes by, and it is an eternity before you get to your dreams
and when you get there you realise they arent what you want
or they arent what you need
or they arent possible to you
I wanted to start a family
I wanted to get married
I wanted to have kids
How can I have these things if there is no love
If there is no innoscence
Simon loved me once
but not anymore
Anthony loved me once
but not anymore
I will forever be alone
I will forever be nothing
When I die I will be nothing
I just wish it would happen already so the torture can stop
The happiness being taken away all the time
The lies
The cheating
The betrayal of trust and friendship
All you wanted was sex out of me
How do I know this is true?
Because you dont care that I am dying inside
You only care about yourself
Am I the only person who is able to care about people other than me?
Then when it gets to the point when I need someone
ANYONE
to care about me
I always find that I am alone
ALWAYS
I need to be held
I need to be loved
If I am alone for much longer I might die from the tears
Dramatic no?
Too much you think?
That's because you dont
Thats because we dont.
Im living in hell
Friday, October 29, 2010
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