Sometimes I wonder why I even bother

So I was sitting at the table, and I pick up the Sunday's Suduko and start to fill it out (The Sunday Suduko is made up of five different Suduko boards, and it really hard!)

So I get up to turn off the computers after a powersurge and forget that I was mid-Suduko-ing

I come back to the table to play a card game with mi hermano since we lost power, and I get ready to continue my Suduko-ing. It was not even an hour later that I come back to the Suduko game to find all my answers erased!

MI HERMANO DECIDED THAT SINCE HE FELT LIKE PLAYING SUDUKO HE WOULD ERASE ALL MY ANSWERS AND START OVER!

BASTARD

So I get angry, of course.
Why do I even try anymore? Any little thing I do always gets destroyed, and I feel like no one actually cares about me anymore. No one considers anyone else's feelings in this house and I am sick of it. Too bad the rest of the world and everyone in it is exactly the same. People are only friends with you for their own convinience. There is not such thing as caring for someone else, because everyone puts themselves first. I am the same as everyone else in this way. I should just get used to it or go. What is the point anymore?

Kevin McHale

Kevin McHale, Artie from Glee, was in a past Zoey 101 episode that I rewatched today.

He was a character named DOOLEY

It was weird to see him acting as a character other than Artie. Also it was weird seeing him walk...

Two sides to every argument

So I watch the tv show Degrassi, and currently Degrassi is having a special in which they title "The Boiling Point", which brings up some arguments between friends that I am having a hard time picking sides for.



The first argument that I have mixed feelings over is between two former best friends.



Background:



Holly J, is a snob and has a rich boyfriend. She thinks that she is better than everyone else, not only because she used to be rich, but also because she is very smart, gets good grades, and is good at everything she tries. She has been the class president of Degrassi (The name of the highschool they attend as well as the name of the T.V. show) for three years, and wants to be class president again.



Anya had been dating a boy named Sav for two years, when he broke her heart on the day after prom by breaking up with her (Anya lied to Sav about taking birth control and they had unprotected sex, so Sav did not trust Anya anymore)



Anya and Holly J used to be best friends until Anya realized that Holly J was controlling her too much and she decided she did not like being treated that way.



Holly J wanted to be class president again this year, but Sav decided that it would look good for college if he was class president (Reasonable).



Holly J wants to go to Yale, but she found out that her parents lost all their savings and would not be able to send her to Yale unless she got a scholarship (as well as being accepted to Yale)



So Holly J tries to convince Sav out of running, because she knew that he would win based on his popularity, but he refused.



Holly J recruits Anya to pretend like she had gotten pregnant from the sex she and Sav had on prom night to get Sav to drop out of the race or to get him to recieve less votes for knocking a girl up.



Anya agrees to this for revenge purposes, but then decides that she loves Sav when he starts acting nice to her and trying to provide everything she and the "baby" would need. Anya then switches sides and helps Sav with his campaign.



CONTROVERSY?



Other than the whole faking a pregnancy thing, what bothers me is that Anya completly ditched Holly J for this boy who dumped her and was only taking her back based on a lie.



Holly J was not really a good friend to Anya, but to benidict arnold Holly J for her ex who wanted nothing to do with her prior to the pregnancy lie leaves me conflicted.



So should I feel sorry for Holly J and mad at Anya? Or proud that Anya took a stand against Holly J.



Either way, Anya used Holly J, and Holly J tried to use Anya. But Holly J has more at stake for winning the election than Sav does, although Sav has a future to plan for too.

But right now I am not liking Anya. It is a pretty bitchy move to put "misters" before "sisters", even if the "sisters" are not your closest friends.

But in reality, would I do the same thing as Anya by picking the ex boyfriend over the semi-gal friend?
NO
Because if a guy broke my heart and decided he would take me back based on a lie, than he is not worth my time.

The mormons do it again!

So I was hanging out with the mormons at Dove's place, and there was a non-member there asking about the hierarchy of the church. All of a sudden all the mormons (eight in total) get really excited and all start talking at once and finishing eachother's sentences. They start explaining about their beliefs and about the prophet and overloading this poor guy with information. Then it got really weird when they started talking about the 13 commandments. They started reciting them. All 8 mormons, reciting these commandments, and not insync either. I decided at that point that I needed to leave, because I am not a practicing mormon, and the way they got so excited over these questions about their church brought up the negative feelings I have for the church and the church members.

I really wish that the mormons could take a step back and NOT jump all over people who ask a simple question about their religion. It scares people away.

How disappointing...

I found out on tuesday that there are dvd's of me when I was younger, and this intrigued me. I really wanted to see how I acted and looked when I was younger, because I don't remember anything before age 13 due to a couple of bad car accidents.

So I have been waiting days, and days, AND DAYS
When
Mi padre FINALLY told me where the key to the safe was. So I open the safe and see that there are NO DVDs inside! I went back to him to find out where the missing DVDs were and we searched the basement and FINALLY FOUND THEM!

So I take the dvds up to my room to watch them on the computer. The first one shows as blank. So does the second, third, fourth and ALL OF THE DVDs ARE BLANK!

Heartbroken, and distraught I told mi padre about the lack of childhood memories on the dvds and he said that we have tapes that he can transfer to dvds.

So all hope is not lost, but I am tired of waiting for memories. I wonder if they would even enrich my life any?

Something funny

So while I was ranting about birthdays on my blog, apparently I was sitting on my computer mouse. Naked. Now I have a HUGE imprint of the computer mouse on my butt. IT HURTS!

Just a thought

Our calendar is so screwed up

The day of out births is not the same every year. I do not know what day of the week I was born because our dumb calendar. What if we baised our birthdays depending on the month and the days of the week instead of the "dates"? For example: If you were born on the second tuesday of the month, then every year, you would celebrate your birthday on the second tuesday of that month.

I wonder, would that make is less of a wait until ones birthday or more of a wait?

And, this may be a screwed up way to think about it, but if you count how many days until your birthday, your original birthday, from January 1st, would it even be in the same month as it was the year before? And what even constitutes the actuality of the starting or ending of a month? The simple rule that is taught in elementary school "Thiry days in September, April, June and November. All the rest have thirty-one except for Feburary", but what logic is that based off of? Why does November have 30 days and December has 31? And WHY ON EARTH does Feburary have 29 or 28 days depending on a "leap year"? And all those poor children who are born on Februrary 29th and do not get their actual birthday for every 3 years?

If the calendar was correct, wouldn't our birthdays be on the same date, day of the week, and month as the year before? And no birthdays would be omitted from the calendar?

How many days would constitute an actual year? Not the whole, 365 or whatever amount of days, but how many days it would take to reach the same day of the week and date as we were born. I think it may be more than 365. THEN THERE WOULD BE ALL THE OTHER BIRTHDAYS IN THE EXTRA MONTHS OR EXTRA DAYS OF THE MONTHS THAT WERE RECORDED WRONG!

RwaR. I guess it might be better to leave our screwed up calendar the way it is, TOO CONFUSING OTHERWISE!

ANGER MANAGMENT

So I got mad at mi hermano today
The doorbell rings

LEVEL OF ANGER: 0

My uncle came to visit
He brought me and mi hermano birthday cards
I called down to mi hermano to come say "hello" to my uncle
He did not respond

LEVEL OF ANGER: 1

I called again for mi hermano to come upstairs
Still no response
I go downstairs to see what is up, and I call his name
NOW he responds

LEVEL OF ANGER: 2

I walk over to him and ask why he did not respond earlier
He says that "now is not a good time"
I ask him why
It is because he can not beat his dumb video game

LEVEL OF ANGER: 3

I tell him that our uncle is here and he should visit
He says he does not want to

LEVEL OF ANGER: 4

I tell him that he should take a break from his video game and cool down
He says okay
I tell him to come visit with his uncle (My uncle lives in Florida and does not come up often)
He says no

LEVEL OF ANGER: 5

I blow up at mi hermano
Calling him a brat
Knowing that if he knew that our uncle was here to give him money
That he would gladly come upstairs

He was using that tone of voice
The type you would talk to something worthless to
He was using that tone of voice
On me

And he was mad over a game!
We always talk about if he gets mad
Especially at a game
To take a break

But does he listen?
NO

I thought our relationship as siblings had changed
I had helped him through some personal stuff
But then this

Maybe I am the one that needs to change?
I scared my dog
By screaming
Maybe I need some anger management

LEVEL OF ANGER: 0

BP Oil Spil

So I was reading an article on aol news entitled "To Boycott BP: Yes Or No?" by Kirk Seaman, and it made me think, too, if boycotting BP stations actually does anything.

I have had a brief conversation previously with my boi about this same subject when we were on our way to fuel up my car. He asked where to go and I replied "Anywhere but BP".

So, in reading this article, Kirk Seaman sided with the organization, The Sierra Club. The Sierra Club, who are not boycotting BP, are instead handing out flyers at gas stations to raise awareness about the problems with the country's dependancy on oil.

This is a fine idea, however, I feel like it is inaffective, for flyers are generally thrown away seconds after leaving the hand of the distributor.

BP should be held responsible for their negligence of deep sea drilling. In that effect, they should be made an example of to all the other oil companies who were thinking about taking some of the same risks BP did in destroying the enviornment for their precious black gold.

One of the reasons brought up in the article, was that station owners that are branded under the name of BP are also suffering. I may sound very bitter and inconsiderate for saying this, but, tough sh8t.

For buying into the system of working for the oil companies to distrubute oil instead of trying to find a way to stop the dependancy on oil, these station owners are getting what is coming to them. By patrionizing these stations, the message is being sent that these big oil companies cannot get away with destroying our natural resourses for fuel that will eventually become obsolete.

So, yea. Some of the American public do not know all the details about BP and the deep sea drilling, but they know that it has been taken to far, and I applaud them for boycotting BP.

I do agree, however, that some research should be done on which stations use BP oil (because apparently, BP sells to other gas stations their gas without using the label.

Sales on BP gas have already gone down from 10%-40% in some BP stations.

I will follow up on this article and do some research about ways that I can keep my car, but not use gasoline anymore.

To read the article from aol news, the link is
http://translogic.aolautos.com/2010/07/21/to-boycott-bp-yes-or-no/

Hate is a strong word, but I really really really don't like you...

I can't laugh
At her 'jokes'
As she calls them
But it is teasing

Ha. ha. ha
How funny
How can it be funny
When you know it bothers me

She is kidding
Ha. ha. ha
So funny
What's so funny?

Do you want this?
How about this?
Or maybe, this?
It goes on and on.

What she thinks is funny
Is the look on my face
As it turns red
And my eyes roll

She knows it's annoying
But that is part of the fun
To belittle me
To bother me

To constantly be talking
With nothing to say
Just to hear her own voice
Hilarious

Even when she isn't blabbing her mouth off
Embarassing me and herself
Every move she makes
I can hear what she would have to say

Oh, why that is rude!
I wonder why people do that...
I am a victim and deserve better
And the famous

Do you want this?
How about this?
Maybe, this?
It goes on and on.

And what can I say to her?
No, stop trying to give me things
Or you are being annoying for caring?
That is EXACTLY what she wants you to say

So she can say later
She doesn't love me
She doesn't like to talk to me
She hates me

"Hate is a strong word,
But I (sometimes) really really
Really don't like you"

So Confused