AWWWWW MICRO PIGS!

HOW CUTE!

I love miniature animals.

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1E1lkV/mysmelly.com/content/other_articles/micro-pigs.htm for more!

Yaddah Yaddah Waaaah Waaaah Whoomp Whoomp WAAAHHH

Jesus.

I went into a listening to music that makes me feel all lovey-dovey phase now didn't I?

I was going through a difficult breakup where I was rebounding with a new boyfriend when I wasn't over the old one.

Shocker.

But wow wow wow WOW was I pityful.

Pityful

hehe

but I am okay now. It is always sad when a relationship ends but sometimes those types of things need to happen to make one stronger.

And petty drama much? Why did I care about all that dumb stuff?

Anyways.

I think I am a lot more mature now but we will have to see ;)

Tattoo Ideas

Another post about possible tattoos.

Why?

BECAUSE I AM GETTING ONE ON MAY 13TH

:D

Friday the thirteenth = $13 small tattoo

Ergo

NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TATTOO TO GET!

Should it be meaningful or something that looks cool or something I just like.

DECISIONS

Wow it has been a long time, now hasn't it?

Well,

Sorry?

Yea........

So a lot has changed since last time, and there is not enough time to go into all the details, so I will just start as if I had been blogging all this time :3

All will be revealed again :P sloooooooooooooowllyyyy

RWARR <3

Nail Polish of the Week

The color is called "Wedding White" but it looks like "White-Out"

Goodbye to you- Michelle Branch

Of all the things i believed in
I just want to get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but i do not cry
counting the days that pass me by

ive been searching deep down in my soul
words that im hearing are strting to get old
it feels like im starting all over again
the last 3 years were just pretend

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

i use to get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i cant live a day without you
closing my eyes and you chased the thoughts away
to a place where i am blinded by the light
but its not right

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one that i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want whats yours and i wants whats mine
i want you but im not giving in this time

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold onto

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
the one thing that i tried to holdd onto
the one thing that i tried to hold onto

and when the stars fall i will lay awake
youre my shooting star

If we were a movie-miley cyrus

uh oh
there you go again, talking cinematic
yea you,
your charming
got everybody starstruck

I know
how you always seem to go
for the obvious instead of me
but get a ticket and youll see

if we were a movie
you'd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

yea...

yea yea
when you call me
i can hear it in your voice
oh sure
wanna see me
and tell me all about her
la la
ill be acting through my tears
i guess youll never know
that i should win
an oscar for this scene im in

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

wish i could tell you theres a twist
some type of hero in disguise
and were together its for real
now playing

wish i could tell you theres a kiss
something more than in my mind
i see it could be amazing

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend that
youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the bestfriend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

Basket Case - Green Day

Do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything all at once?

I am one of those
melodramatic fools
nerotic to the bone no doubt about it

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i just sad>?

I went to a shrink
to analyse my dreams
she says its lack of sex thats bringing me down

I went to a whore
and said my life's a bore
so quit my whining because its bringing her down

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i sad?

grasping to control
so i better hold on

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i just sad?

im living in hell

im living in hell

there is no god, there is no devil

this world is a cruel and evil place

and i am not sure i want to be a part of it anymore

people kill eachother for no reason

people kill eachother because they like it

people we love and let close to us let us down

the only reason they are there is to fail you

to bring you down too

you cant let yourself love anyone because if you let your gaurd down

you will be destroyed

this life means nothing and when you die you are nothing

so if i die, then i am nothing

i would rather be nothing then a part of something so horrible

as this dimention that i live in

the good times are only there to make the bad times so much worse

logic only exists to be twisted by those who can

love doesnt exist

i thought i was in love, not only once but twice

the first time i thought i was wrong because i was manipulated

the second time was all a lie

friends are only there to go behind your back and destroy you from behind

enemies are the only ones you can trust because at least their intentions are out in the open

no one is innoscent

no one tells the truth

no one says what they mean

every day passes by, and it is an eternity before you get to your dreams

and when you get there you realise they arent what you want

or they arent what you need

or they arent possible to you

I wanted to start a family

I wanted to get married

I wanted to have kids

How can I have these things if there is no love

If there is no innoscence

Simon loved me once

but not anymore

Anthony loved me once

but not anymore

I will forever be alone

I will forever be nothing

When I die I will be nothing

I just wish it would happen already so the torture can stop

The happiness being taken away all the time

The lies

The cheating

The betrayal of trust and friendship

All you wanted was sex out of me

How do I know this is true?

Because you dont care that I am dying inside

You only care about yourself

Am I the only person who is able to care about people other than me?

Then when it gets to the point when I need someone

ANYONE

to care about me

I always find that I am alone

ALWAYS

I need to be held

I need to be loved

If I am alone for much longer I might die from the tears

Dramatic no?

Too much you think?

That's because you dont

Thats because we dont.

Im living in hell

Ignorance is Bliss

Ignorance is bliss, but knowlege is power. To whom is the knowledge powerful?

As we get older, in our lives we are exposed to moments where we find out something that is more complicated than it seems. I have been reading "Banana" by Dan Koeppel, and it has opened my eyes to the truth about where our food comes from and how it is made. For example, bananas, did you ever notice they dont have seeds>? Did you ever bother to ask yourself why?

It is because every banana is a clone of another banana. The bananas we eat today are not the same type of bananas that were eaten in this country 40 years ago. We are eating clone bananas. And the bananas we consume today are only able to reproduce by human hand, otherwise there would be no more bananas. These clone bananas are created from genes of other fruits and even fish.

I continued to read an article about the fruit drink Fuze, and the fact that we dont even think where all the ingredients for the drink comes from and instead we wonder about how many sugars and calories we consume from it show all of the ignorance in this country. To find out where the ingredeints come from the author of the article spent 7 hours of intense online research to find out where each ingredient comes from, and still had no positive answer as to where each ingredient came from.

We live in America, where we dont have to wonder where our food comes from but rather how much of it we eat, while we are supporting the countries that we do not want to support. The leaders and the economies of the people we fight against. We put farmers in our own country out of jobs because we dont bother to look at where our food comes from. A single item can have ingredients from all over the world and we ignore the fact and accept that it is food, and we need food to survive.

And what can we do about it? We can garden our own fruits and vegitables, grow our own wheat, make our own breads and pastas. We can buy from local farms, or from local grociers that buy from local farms. Does this make any impact at all? NO. Does it change anything in the long run? NO.

So if knowlege is power, then why does it happen, that the people who go through the trouble of finding the knowlege are so few? And to that, the people who have this knowlege have no power over the situation but rather are left with a feeling of guilt, disgust, hatred, helplessness, and uselessness while the people who are oblivious to all of this are rolling in cash or are comfortably eating whatever food they feel like regardless of where it came from or who needs it most?

Ignorance is bliss, because when we do have knowlege we dont know what to do with it, and it ends up destroying us. What do we do with knowlege? We try to spread it but it is never heard. If it is heard in the least, there arent enough people to do anything about it. The things i discussed in this one post are only a few points of a very important issue and of this important issue, it is only one of the bajillion other issues that need to be adressed.

We will just keep destroying ourselves because it is more comfortable and easier on our conciences to not know about all of the horrible things happening because of our ignorance. So the question is, be happy? or be right.

Nail color of the week

this week the color is Silver Slippers by Confetti

I WANT THIS!!

A CUPCAKE MAKER! HOW AWESOME, I WANT!

Also, how badass is this girl?

my first tattoo

So I have decided for sure that I want my first tattoo to be on my foot and to be HAMTARO

I love online shopping

So I was online shopping and I cam across this ice-cube tray that makes shark fins

AWESOME!!!

also these shot glass ice-cube trays

time to break out

so I was online shopping, which I do when I need a little pick-me-up

and I was looking at retro clothing, which I love, but don't feel comfortable wearing.
So I was thinking to myself, if there was a retro-new age-punk wear that is what I would be happy to wear all the time.

I kept looking at goth sites, and punk rocker sites, but it was all too outgoing for me but THEN...

I discovered the style called rockabilly

what rockabilly is, is a retro punk look from the 80's and it looks fucking fantastic. It is loud but not polka dots with plaid loud, or chains and blood loud. Simply individual and brings together my favorite parts of the punk look and adding retro to it.

I am going to finish the jacket I started making for my boi and then I am gonna rockabilly all my clothes.... YESSSS

Summer Fashions

Gladiator sandals
Aviators
Nude and pastel colors
Flowing tops
Ballerina flats
Skinny jeans
Flower prints
Bubble skirts
Divided dresses (belt under the boobs)
Loose clothes

Four Walls

I feel like I am stuck in a small room
Four walls and a roof over my head
All made from concrete
It is dangerous outside of this small room
It is thundering and raining
And things are bumping up against my walls
And the walls are not sturdy
The walls are not supported by anything
They are simply standing in an uproght position
Like all good walls should
Except for the walls arent keeping balance anymore
They are slowly caving in on my in my small room
I have to keep the walls up or the concrete ceiling will collapse on me

Right now, I am trying to prevent the walls from caving in on me
But as I get more discouraged, the storm outside gets more intense
And the walls keep pushing up against me
And I am trying my best to keep the ceiling above my head
But I am trapped and just trying to reach a comfortable medium
Being able to sit in the room until the storm blows over
But it is never that easy
I must keep the walls up and the ceiling too


So are the walls my foundation?
My beliefs and my structure?
And the ceiling what keeps me protected but still trapped?
Why am I so afraid of the storm outside?
It is only rain and thunder afterall, and it can't be any worse
Than being trapped within a small concrete box

But now it is too late!
How do I escape from a concrete box?
Without the ceiling collapsing on me
And crushing me?
It's like I dug my own grave
Or am playing hide and seek in a sinking ship

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother

So I was sitting at the table, and I pick up the Sunday's Suduko and start to fill it out (The Sunday Suduko is made up of five different Suduko boards, and it really hard!)

So I get up to turn off the computers after a powersurge and forget that I was mid-Suduko-ing

I come back to the table to play a card game with mi hermano since we lost power, and I get ready to continue my Suduko-ing. It was not even an hour later that I come back to the Suduko game to find all my answers erased!

MI HERMANO DECIDED THAT SINCE HE FELT LIKE PLAYING SUDUKO HE WOULD ERASE ALL MY ANSWERS AND START OVER!

BASTARD

So I get angry, of course.
Why do I even try anymore? Any little thing I do always gets destroyed, and I feel like no one actually cares about me anymore. No one considers anyone else's feelings in this house and I am sick of it. Too bad the rest of the world and everyone in it is exactly the same. People are only friends with you for their own convinience. There is not such thing as caring for someone else, because everyone puts themselves first. I am the same as everyone else in this way. I should just get used to it or go. What is the point anymore?

Kevin McHale

Kevin McHale, Artie from Glee, was in a past Zoey 101 episode that I rewatched today.

He was a character named DOOLEY

It was weird to see him acting as a character other than Artie. Also it was weird seeing him walk...

Two sides to every argument

So I watch the tv show Degrassi, and currently Degrassi is having a special in which they title "The Boiling Point", which brings up some arguments between friends that I am having a hard time picking sides for.



The first argument that I have mixed feelings over is between two former best friends.



Background:



Holly J, is a snob and has a rich boyfriend. She thinks that she is better than everyone else, not only because she used to be rich, but also because she is very smart, gets good grades, and is good at everything she tries. She has been the class president of Degrassi (The name of the highschool they attend as well as the name of the T.V. show) for three years, and wants to be class president again.



Anya had been dating a boy named Sav for two years, when he broke her heart on the day after prom by breaking up with her (Anya lied to Sav about taking birth control and they had unprotected sex, so Sav did not trust Anya anymore)



Anya and Holly J used to be best friends until Anya realized that Holly J was controlling her too much and she decided she did not like being treated that way.



Holly J wanted to be class president again this year, but Sav decided that it would look good for college if he was class president (Reasonable).



Holly J wants to go to Yale, but she found out that her parents lost all their savings and would not be able to send her to Yale unless she got a scholarship (as well as being accepted to Yale)



So Holly J tries to convince Sav out of running, because she knew that he would win based on his popularity, but he refused.



Holly J recruits Anya to pretend like she had gotten pregnant from the sex she and Sav had on prom night to get Sav to drop out of the race or to get him to recieve less votes for knocking a girl up.



Anya agrees to this for revenge purposes, but then decides that she loves Sav when he starts acting nice to her and trying to provide everything she and the "baby" would need. Anya then switches sides and helps Sav with his campaign.



CONTROVERSY?



Other than the whole faking a pregnancy thing, what bothers me is that Anya completly ditched Holly J for this boy who dumped her and was only taking her back based on a lie.



Holly J was not really a good friend to Anya, but to benidict arnold Holly J for her ex who wanted nothing to do with her prior to the pregnancy lie leaves me conflicted.



So should I feel sorry for Holly J and mad at Anya? Or proud that Anya took a stand against Holly J.



Either way, Anya used Holly J, and Holly J tried to use Anya. But Holly J has more at stake for winning the election than Sav does, although Sav has a future to plan for too.

But right now I am not liking Anya. It is a pretty bitchy move to put "misters" before "sisters", even if the "sisters" are not your closest friends.

But in reality, would I do the same thing as Anya by picking the ex boyfriend over the semi-gal friend?
NO
Because if a guy broke my heart and decided he would take me back based on a lie, than he is not worth my time.