Friday, October 29, 2010

Goodbye to you- Michelle Branch

Of all the things i believed in
I just want to get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but i do not cry
counting the days that pass me by

ive been searching deep down in my soul
words that im hearing are strting to get old
it feels like im starting all over again
the last 3 years were just pretend

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

i use to get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i cant live a day without you
closing my eyes and you chased the thoughts away
to a place where i am blinded by the light
but its not right

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one that i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to

and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want whats yours and i wants whats mine
i want you but im not giving in this time

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold onto

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
the one thing that i tried to holdd onto
the one thing that i tried to hold onto

and when the stars fall i will lay awake
youre my shooting star

If we were a movie-miley cyrus

uh oh
there you go again, talking cinematic
yea you,
your charming
got everybody starstruck

I know
how you always seem to go
for the obvious instead of me
but get a ticket and youll see

if we were a movie
you'd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

yea...

yea yea
when you call me
i can hear it in your voice
oh sure
wanna see me
and tell me all about her
la la
ill be acting through my tears
i guess youll never know
that i should win
an oscar for this scene im in

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

wish i could tell you theres a twist
some type of hero in disguise
and were together its for real
now playing

wish i could tell you theres a kiss
something more than in my mind
i see it could be amazing

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the best friend that
youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

if we were a movie
youd be the right guy
and id be the bestfriend
that youd fall in love with
and in the end wed be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the names
play that happy song

Basket Case - Green Day

Do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything all at once?

I am one of those
melodramatic fools
nerotic to the bone no doubt about it

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i just sad>?

I went to a shrink
to analyse my dreams
she says its lack of sex thats bringing me down

I went to a whore
and said my life's a bore
so quit my whining because its bringing her down

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i sad?

grasping to control
so i better hold on

sometimes i give myself the creeps
sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
it all keeps adding up
i think im cracking up
am i just paranoid
or am i just sad?

im living in hell

im living in hell

there is no god, there is no devil

this world is a cruel and evil place

and i am not sure i want to be a part of it anymore

people kill eachother for no reason

people kill eachother because they like it

people we love and let close to us let us down

the only reason they are there is to fail you

to bring you down too

you cant let yourself love anyone because if you let your gaurd down

you will be destroyed

this life means nothing and when you die you are nothing

so if i die, then i am nothing

i would rather be nothing then a part of something so horrible

as this dimention that i live in

the good times are only there to make the bad times so much worse

logic only exists to be twisted by those who can

love doesnt exist

i thought i was in love, not only once but twice

the first time i thought i was wrong because i was manipulated

the second time was all a lie

friends are only there to go behind your back and destroy you from behind

enemies are the only ones you can trust because at least their intentions are out in the open

no one is innoscent

no one tells the truth

no one says what they mean

every day passes by, and it is an eternity before you get to your dreams

and when you get there you realise they arent what you want

or they arent what you need

or they arent possible to you

I wanted to start a family

I wanted to get married

I wanted to have kids

How can I have these things if there is no love

If there is no innoscence

Simon loved me once

but not anymore

Anthony loved me once

but not anymore

I will forever be alone

I will forever be nothing

When I die I will be nothing

I just wish it would happen already so the torture can stop

The happiness being taken away all the time

The lies

The cheating

The betrayal of trust and friendship

All you wanted was sex out of me

How do I know this is true?

Because you dont care that I am dying inside

You only care about yourself

Am I the only person who is able to care about people other than me?

Then when it gets to the point when I need someone

ANYONE

to care about me

I always find that I am alone

ALWAYS

I need to be held

I need to be loved

If I am alone for much longer I might die from the tears

Dramatic no?

Too much you think?

That's because you dont

Thats because we dont.

Im living in hell

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Ignorance is Bliss

Ignorance is bliss, but knowlege is power. To whom is the knowledge powerful?

As we get older, in our lives we are exposed to moments where we find out something that is more complicated than it seems. I have been reading "Banana" by Dan Koeppel, and it has opened my eyes to the truth about where our food comes from and how it is made. For example, bananas, did you ever notice they dont have seeds>? Did you ever bother to ask yourself why?

It is because every banana is a clone of another banana. The bananas we eat today are not the same type of bananas that were eaten in this country 40 years ago. We are eating clone bananas. And the bananas we consume today are only able to reproduce by human hand, otherwise there would be no more bananas. These clone bananas are created from genes of other fruits and even fish.

I continued to read an article about the fruit drink Fuze, and the fact that we dont even think where all the ingredients for the drink comes from and instead we wonder about how many sugars and calories we consume from it show all of the ignorance in this country. To find out where the ingredeints come from the author of the article spent 7 hours of intense online research to find out where each ingredient comes from, and still had no positive answer as to where each ingredient came from.

We live in America, where we dont have to wonder where our food comes from but rather how much of it we eat, while we are supporting the countries that we do not want to support. The leaders and the economies of the people we fight against. We put farmers in our own country out of jobs because we dont bother to look at where our food comes from. A single item can have ingredients from all over the world and we ignore the fact and accept that it is food, and we need food to survive.

And what can we do about it? We can garden our own fruits and vegitables, grow our own wheat, make our own breads and pastas. We can buy from local farms, or from local grociers that buy from local farms. Does this make any impact at all? NO. Does it change anything in the long run? NO.

So if knowlege is power, then why does it happen, that the people who go through the trouble of finding the knowlege are so few? And to that, the people who have this knowlege have no power over the situation but rather are left with a feeling of guilt, disgust, hatred, helplessness, and uselessness while the people who are oblivious to all of this are rolling in cash or are comfortably eating whatever food they feel like regardless of where it came from or who needs it most?

Ignorance is bliss, because when we do have knowlege we dont know what to do with it, and it ends up destroying us. What do we do with knowlege? We try to spread it but it is never heard. If it is heard in the least, there arent enough people to do anything about it. The things i discussed in this one post are only a few points of a very important issue and of this important issue, it is only one of the bajillion other issues that need to be adressed.

We will just keep destroying ourselves because it is more comfortable and easier on our conciences to not know about all of the horrible things happening because of our ignorance. So the question is, be happy? or be right.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Nail color of the week







this week the color is Silver Slippers by Confetti